don't you have something else to do???;

there's someone broke into our house.and took my daddy's golf bag. my dad is so upset right now and i can see that. and it's killing me totally. im pissed and blaming myself for that.it's all my fault i didn't scold hasanah to lock the door and waiting for school inside the house. i should have noticed that the 'guy' (i hope he is soooo busted and return the bag back and i promise i won't kill him.) is not my dad when i heard something at the living hall while i was at the computer space. GOD, how could i be so careless?????

please ALLAH, i can't bear seeing my dad like that. it's the only thing that makes him happy. please don't take that from him. i believe somehow somewhere he will find it back, if YOU are willing to grant his hopes.

you're gone and i'm chocking;

i will never forget yesterday.
i miss you already.

yesterday was sux. i wasnt sleeping for almost 2 days, my head's banging, and i got my test on 11.30am and my lecturer was mad at me and said that im late. i remember i told her i got class from 9-11 (but i didnt go) and she keep protesting and all that saying that i lied. gosh, lucky la she let me through this time.
i got my ticket at 3pm and if there's nothing interfere in the middle ill be able to arrive on time and got a few last precious minute with bil, i was like a girl whose lost in Hogwarts. i keep asking people which train should i take, which line and stuff, hectic and anxious, i just need to see bil! finally be at klia at 9.40 pm and since my phone's dead( sux23232677849007867800x) despite that i know bil must have called me and i cant do anything to fix that. i called zap as soon as i arrived there, and he told me that they were already gone. i don't know how to say this but at that particular moment i felt that my feets were weak and almost hit the ground (ceh ayat nk drama) but seriously i never felt that kind of emptiness in my life. im so sorry bill, be safe there and don't forget bout me.i know you wanna give me that 'cow-gift' or whatsoever it called, and i do wanna give u that necklace, but seems like all those things have to wait.
i heart you besfwen. stay healthy and xoxo.
lots of love.

izza azizah rosli, @ ajijah (BIL sowang jek yg boley panggil aku name ni ok??!'


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and finally you are here;

terima kasih hasreen :)

coz sudi nak study ngan aku. bkn sebab nak cuci mate.

seot la. kantoi lak.

;)

with every single breath and every note im pleading;

i started feeling anxious about the day after tomorrow. i don't know if i can live without my bestfriend here. laaa of coz la i can live without bill. bukannye mati pon bile dia takde. ni bukan cite hindustan. tak payah nak beriye.

tapi serius weh, knowing that she will be gone, i can't think straight and i know there is something inside my heart is getting weak and sick. it's like hundreds of midgets are stomping in my livers using the rusty axes. bleh..go my friend go. chase after your dreams and bring me lots of presents. i wanna see Auckland through your eyes.

geli gile.

blow me a kiss;

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I am have you..you...you....

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ECS;

pagi tadi datang lambat ke kelas. semalam stay up sampai kol 5 pagi wat jadah haram kire2 beam ntah trusses ntah pape yg spt bese mmg sangat menyakitkan hati. tetibe pagi tadi ak bangun lg 10 minit nak kol 8. so paham2 la sendiri kan, macam mane kelam kabutnye aku yang memang da sedia kala kelam kabut ni. subuh memang da basi la bai. tapi ak semayang gak weh, tp dalam kepale asek pikir pn ruqayah jek.memang ak da taw da kitorang mati punye pagi ni.

sampai kelas kene halau. xpela, salah sendiri.ak pasrah ni weh. kelas 5 jam dorang penat2 wat exercise, kitorang balik dlu beli nasi lemak sotong makan kat uma. ak siap boley tido, ngan maen solitaire lagi. amek ko, da kene halau, xkan ko nk berkabung tunggu depan pintu kelas plak. sure confirm memang no mercy. tp pape pon, aku respect and sayang kt pn roqayah. mintak maaf la ye puan, tak berani nak cakap depan, so cakap dlm blog jek (cam bese r). semoge lepas ni mmg xde la bangun lambat lg. at least tido dlm kelas pn pon masyuk gak dr tdo kat uma.ade aircond.

project sangat banyak. waktu untuk berblogging sangat terhad. btw, memang betol blog adalah tempat untuk kamu ekspresi perasaan tapi tolong r jangan melampau. nanti kalau da jadi kes polis, semua blog kene block, cmne? amek ko.tulis r novel plak.

happy happy day;

3 ari berturut-turut lepak di kebab. honestly, aku memang suke pon lepak situ. pedulik hape orang nak cakap.

i guess now it's my turn.

btw, happy birthday abang alan. sweet 30. u've been a great big bro to us. and all those people around you, they love you too. or else we won't be so dirty, messed up and disgusting last night with pieces of cake and donuts.haha.

seot la sape yang buat kat aku tu.bau kek tak hilang lagi nie.?

nur fatin nabilah.

wish you're here.

weh asyik name ko jek yg aku tulis kat blog ak.ko da femes r kunun-kunun kat cni. ko agak-agak, ade tak orang igt kite lesbian?

hater;

ni nak citer. my life is great right now but it's not for long. bill will leave me and that's kinda scary. i have truckloads of assignments and research to do and now i realized that i missed out lots of stuff and i need to catch up all those things before i finish my diploma and suck at the site.

and this upcoming message is for mr bloody***tmotherfishcake.

i hate you. seriously damn much.you ruined US. tho some people said that was okay and wasn't blaming you for all that shitty things that happened, but i sticked to mine, you are %#%^$^%&!!

but i pray for you. i hope u'll change.

doh kalau depan depan mesti aku tak berani cakap. seotla izza.

thank you for having me as your eyes' desert;

ok,techinically i got 2 minutes to write something. class will be started in 7 minutes.

wahhhh!!!!!!rase macam da lame gile tak update. bkn rase, MEMANG da lame x update. sgt rindu pada blog. pade sesape yg slalu menjengah dan membace blog saye yang tak seberape a.k.a ntah hape-hape lagi merepek ni, pastu update kunun kunun mcm banyak giler masalah MEMANG banyak gile masalah kot.masalah yang tak terjangkau akal fikiran pon da start menguji kesabaran ak skang. ceh cakap macam banyak giler masalah dalam idup aku walhal banyak lagi orang yang menimbun masalah kat luar sane. okay perkataan masalah ni da start membuatkan aku loya so skang kite nak cite pasal ape??

oh dang, skang tinggal 1 minute lg nak masok kelas. citer laen kali.

azam tahun baru.

study and duit. akan berusaha mencari duit dengan kudrat sendiri. sebaik dan sebanyak mungkin!!yes!

without words u knew it all along;

sebab you deserve a better, or the best man, so maybe sebab tu you waited a bit :D

thanx wewe. i hope so. =)

"be good in school. i love you best friend. regards to your college mates."

this is the message from my best bloody good friend in the world. it's simple, i checked my handphone when i woke up and i read this straight away. she must have missed me since i left for school. and obviously, i love you too bestfriend.

baking with tonnes of love. i did. i smiled so when u taste it, u could imagine my face.
with me smiling.