tonight's gonna be a good night;

i baked 3 times this week. since i love baking and my family likes my cake so it's fine.

new year's eve and my aunt's coming over and took my sister along with her to go watch fireworks. and i am comfortable being in home, i might be boring but at least i do everything that only makes me comfortable.

happy new year everyone. new hope, new spirit, new love. yeah, i mean it, a truly boyfriend might be nice. haha

fake a smile so he won't see;

seriously, the taylors are already gone??

no comment.

and waves are crushing;

i had a dream last night. again. woah to be honest, i seemed to find that my dreams sometimes were quite unrelevant and i don't know what are the real omen. well, call me whatever but i do believe in this thing. there's one time i dreamt about me marrying a ghost or else i'll die. haha marrying a ghost, i already got myself killed for that.

now tell me how many times you have dreamed bout your bestfriends? that was it last night. AGAIN. i always thought that if we dreamed about someone, it must be the meeting of our souls when we're sleeping. u know my spirit meets their spirits. so i speculated that was because she's missing me. but it turned out to be that it might be that i'm the one who's missing her. so now i will say it.

i must have been missing you guys. so much. i heart you.

does that killing you? no right?;

=)
i can't stop grinning now i mean, that drama series that me and maya are watching now is seriously good. i couldn't believe the impact that its been giving us in this moment.

and maya has been saying 'Gun Joon Pyo' words for over 163 times now. and it sound annoying yet funny.

it's the name of the hero.

people awake and you're still dreaming;

how could people be so creative. they created films and made people happy with their touches of love. according to their arts, i guess they have almost, perfect families and lots of happiness to give to other people. i love film's and drama's makers. cross my heart.

boys over flowers.

just take one step closer to me. and you will see.

the last song;

So here's to all the lonely hearts
Coz mine's been ripped and torn apart
I'm colder now, it's getting dark
But I'll be okay
Bury me with my guitar
And on the way to hell I'll play

If this is the last song I'll ever sing
Then I'm giving it everything
I'm giving it all



McF.

leaving on a jet plane;

i just knew about this a few days ago. about Harry Judd, the amazing drummer in the universe from mcfly, that during the filming of Just My Luck, there were rumours about him and Lindsay Lohan. i mean, come on! he's gorgeous with good manners. ( i think)

i know i have no right to say anything but if only Lindsay was with Harry, you might be happy because Harry seems like one real loyal person to me. i mean, look at Izzi Johnston, one beautiful violinist and she looks happy.

you're the sunshine after the rain;

i love Pn. Siti Hafizan.
i love my PA.

thank you cause you are always there to show us the way out of our mountainous problems.

let the journey of love begins;

biase cuti-cuti hujung minggu camni mesti banyak orang kawen. and aku memang suke kalo pegi majlis orang kawen ni. orang tua-tua kate, kalo orang jemput gi majlis kawen, baek ko pegi, kalo tak nanti time ko kawen xde sape datang. padan muke.

well, it's like almost people that i've know, are getting married so soon. and our age is about the same. now this makes me wonder, where is my mr. right now??? COME OUT!!

hate waiting. such a pain in my ass.
torrent, faster!

i love something. and i will make other people love it as well as i do. i'm not trying so hard, and that's the best part. when they started to love it and got addicted, i'll tell myself, ' ouh, i'm not just good. i'm scary good!'

hah!

When she's asleep the air she's breathing is for you ;

you are damn genius Tom Fletcher.
POV, All About You, Bubble Wrap, (so much more im helpless to write down)
She Falls Asleep touches my heart. sorry i discovered late.

i am sure you wrote thousands of beautiful songs for Giovanna Falcone.

this girl is my girl;

lalalyn

i should have posted this instead i forgot so now i need to story.
about a month ago she asked to watch new moon with her and i brought maya along.
we had so much fun. i mean, i have known lyn for almost 10 years now so there's no awkwardness between us. and i love this girl. tho nowadays we're barely meet, i assure you my feelings towards her stay the same. nohing has changed. just our figures anyway. =)

by the way, all policemen out there!
she was wearing seat belt ok!

I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi to me, or even smile, because I know even if just for a second, I crossed your mind.



-bill rosli-

.

you are my rhythm
you are the music in me


always

melt me with your eyes my star boy rules the sky;

this is why people created a word ' loyal '

so do ya love me, cause i wanna know;

well people change. we know that. some people are mean, we got that. some people are liars, we hate that. some people are back-stabbers, we see that. some people just know how to get this life, make it easier, make it simple, less strain and tension, no worries. we envy that. some people are so hard to understand, and we blame them. owh well some people are forgiving and we love that. but why do we keep making the same mistakes? is it forgiving is so cheap? people make mistakes, they apologise, we forgive, and spare them something called a CHANCE. but you blew it away.

and here, i wanna say, some people do not deserve a second chance. DON'T.

my baby you;

saye ade kawan name yuyu. dulu waktu part 1 die roomate sy. bedmate saye. i mean, dy katil bawah saye. i like her so dang much. she is so adorable. she's willing to learn, she likes people to advise her if she's wrong. and it's hard to find somebody like her nowadays.
i miss her smile, laugh, EVERYTHING about her. hey did i mention that she is pretty too. and mostly, she is a DORK. i'm a dork, she is dorkier. ahahaha.


by the way, i said this. but i need to say it one more time. i miss you buddy.


bayliey;

If I cant be the one to hold you baby I don't think I could live;

well seems like good times do not last long aite? i felt very sad when i was sending bil to the terminal. because i don't know when will i see her again. ( lissa i was so sad too when i watched you walk away when we were out but i know i can always see you =) )

hey, like miley said, this is the life, hold on tight. i prefer this all kind of mixed emotions than just live in one plain boring life.


bayliey;

we are so happy to see lissa.
for REAL. we love you =)))

29 hours since bill is here. it's a gift of a friend.

you belong with me;

http://www.youtube.com/user/zetaBmoon#p/u/1/VR0ZCxtEQG0

luck, love and life;

i always dream to see you. that one day i will bump into you and we'll do that suprise looks and happy dancing. i have waited for this long to see you and dig down deep in your eyes to see if i ever been there. i really hope that will happen. i never stop believing.

why should you pick side?
i mean, we're all human. some people are gay okay. or not straight.
just get over it. there's nothing wrong to be friends with them, as long as you know how to take care of yourself. owh stop judging people, PEOPLE!

i will stay the same;

i'm so excited i'm so excited!!!!
tomorrow bill will come over and we're gonna have our slumber party! or should i say 'parties' cause she's staying for 5 days. i'm so blessed. instead of that whole-handphone-thing. i really need my Bs right now.

1; bill
2; blackberry (in my dream)
3; babyboo (in future ahaha)

by the way, i watched Awan Dania last night. and Jehan Miskin has blackberry. well, that's not something huge but it is huge to me.* sangat hiperbola. and don't you think Scha is so adorable?? yes she is.

they say;

you will miss something once it's gone.
you will appreciate something once you lost it from your eyes.

well that's what i really feel now.

i'm not blind, you're always heart me;

i love Sandra Bullock. i always love Sandra Bullock. She's dang gorgeous, and amazing. After 'The Proposal' , which is good to me, 'Blind Side' is so touching. i don't know if that was out in theater or something but i will definitely, be watching it.

the ballad of paul K

And she can’t seem to put things right;

i woke up and i felt the energy. it was a good feeling i had for the day. then i cleaned up the house and everything. i wanted to wash my blanket and whatever i had on my bed. i just ripped everything off and threw those in washing machine. i noticed there was something sounding strange at the bottom of the machine but i didn't care cause i thought that it was the weigh of my sweet roses blanket. i started to feel uneasy in my stomach, i stopped the machine, put my hand in it, dancing my fingers at the bottom of it and i almost crying when i touched the 'thing'. i knew what was it. yeah my phone.

and i was okay till i wrote this down. all i think about for now, my songs and the contact. i hope you will recover so soon baby. cause i can't afford to lose you. at least, not for now.


bayliey;

i got you and it makes me feel stronger;

today was cool. because i skipped my houseworks duty and get yelled by my mom.
i have to admit i love youtube so much. i found this one amazing girl. owh at first i thought that she was a boy. i watched her first when i was searching for someone who can play 'point of view' acoustic as good as mcFly. and there she was. her channel, zetaBmoon.

i really really really like her. i mean, she's good, her voice is sooo cute, and she's so spontaneous and like 'yeah-i will do-what-i wanna do'- style . check her out. her name is cathrin. look at that. what a nice name.

ahhhh..


bayliey;

i always bold your name;

i just knew that Chace Crawford was playing the role of Tyler in The Covenant ? and i thought he's a freshman. crap. he's gorgeous the way he is. i really think so. not until my eyes were stuck on Caleb. i don't know what's his real name. i better go figure this out.

you know hope seems almost cruel at this point.

bayliey;

one step ahead;

i really want to try sushi! envying those who have courage to try it for the first time. you know there will always be the first time to us. i keep asking people about it but now i think i should climb the mountains to find that. what we called it? owh, courage. yeah to try sushi.


bayliey;

I don't know if there's a life on Mars;

what's on my mind now;

u know i always wonder how could people stay away from their families for quiet a long time.
i mean, seriously, u don't miss them? it's not that i have this one perfect family. believe me, i don't. we always fight. and sometimes i really don't wanna go home and want to turn my back on them. they don't get me, understand me and give me what i deserved. and when the pain and the strain linger around my head and my heart, that's when i cry. there was one time i wrote a note because i pissed off with my mom. and they were right. u can't hate them no matter how much you want it. and yes, they made mistakes, and so was i.

indeed i know, they will always be my no 1. be grateful that you have a family. a place called HOME.


bayliey;

bubble wrap my heart;

Cause this is the last time
I give up this heart of mine
I'm telling you that I'm
A broken man who's finally realized
You're standing in moonlight
But you're black on the inside
Do you think you ought to cry?
This is goodbye



bayliey;

There’s things that I wanna say;

" i just think that maybe we could cuddle up on the couch and watching ESPN "

- vanessa to nate, gossip girl season 2 -

how sweet is that??


bayliey;

sorry's not good enough

sumpah ak tamo mandi mlm da lepas nie.
hujan yg x brenti menurunkan suhu air kat uma aku.
mandi kol 2 pg, pastu dada ak rase sesak gle.
moral; jgn mandi malam da.


knape la bile org2 tua ckp jgn mndi malam, xbgus, tp kite wt gak??
sbb dlm kpale ade itu batu besar. ye, kpale aku.


bayliey;

life is more than just good results;

UPSR is out. and maya don' be sad. good result isn't everything. i know you are good. that's all that matters. and you are a great sister to me. and im the greatest sista for you.

nak jugak puji diri sendiri.


bayliey;

that was me 3 years ago;

gud luck to beloved brother yg da start amek spm tadi pagi.
aku sayang ko. wat btol btol.
mohd syukur bin rosli. naseb baek ko tengah pekse. kalau tak aku da blasah muke ko sbb jual gitar ak.



bayliey;

jika kau berubah fikiran aku kan setia menanti
jika kau memerlukan teman carilah disini




bayliey;

azam duduk rumah.
nak cari keje.
nk jd surirumah yg berjaye lagi bergaye
tapi, makan tak boleh control.
so tambah azam baru, lebihkan tido kurangkan makan.

aku sentiase suke idea nie.


bayliey;

u got what it takes?

my exam was a bit frustrating. it was unpredictable and i hate when i can't predict things. some went well and some was hell went wrong. adoi.

aku rase cam ade bau bau repeat jek sem ni. dang. sakit jiwe aku.


bayliey;

this is why people die;

now i wonder why people are so greedy?they can't simply satisfied with what they have. she likes somebody. he didn't respond. she gave up. she moves on, be strong, keeps telling herself that, 'it is fine. i can handle it. i can live by myself. i will bump into lots of hotties. '

owh sure, yes it is true. but then suddenly the guy shows his interest. they keep texting each other. but when the guy stops texting her, she feels sad, and thinking so hard, 'what i've done? where it went wrong?was it something i said?or something i did? '

well come on!! why on earth would you asked that to yourself? we never know why. so just stop asking for more, and live your life. for heaven's sake, get a life dude! be glad with what you have and of course, it happens because god wants it to happen. he knows what the best for you.
think this way, 'owh you got me then you lost me. what a lost. to you.'


bayliey;

don't wanna get there wishing that you're given more;

4 days left. i can't believe that this semester is coming to the end. pathetic yes i know. but what can i do, i only know you 3 weeks ago. R for Romeo. haha

bayliey;

you're in everyone i see, so tell me, do you see me?

-everywhere, michelle branch-



bayliey;

negeri 9 vs kelantan, 2-0. so far;

did you believe in retribution and redemption? well i wasn't really thinking about that but lately it stuck in my mind days and nights. totally no good since i have 3 more papers and believe me, i need to score to get good grades this sem. or else my mom will totally goes madly insane and take back her notebook that i borrowed from her, and me, will have watery eyes. great.

and seriously, i need to stay up. whatever it takes to score, except drinking nescafe. i hate nescafe. caffein to be exact. i will die from major headache.

bayliey;

all i ever think about is you;

i go crazy everytime i see you. nervous and excited and i know i shouldn't acting like a stupid freaking girl.
it's just that, you make me feel weird. and in 10 days, you'll be gone. i know it sounds stupid, but i am sad.
seriously.
im sorry i don't have a courage to approach you. i really want to but my mind goes blank and my lips are sealed and i can't speak.

please read my eyes. i have your number by the way.

bayliey;

don't let go.

please, don't let go. im not prepared to lose you.



bayliey;

cross out jennifer.

last night we went to watch jennifer's body anddd it was wayyy beyond good!
i mean, HELL GOOD.
i mean, Megan Fox is so hot. gosh i will fall for her totally if i was a boy! and Adam Brody, ahh melting. that hunk, it's been a long long time since last time i saw him, and that was on The O.C.
owh boy, you have grown up, so much!!

i love that kind of movie, it made my blood racing like totally insane. and i wonder how could some people stay in beauty when they supposed to look ugly in tonnes of blood. and here, of course, im talking about jennifer. i think im falling for her already. im sooo lesbi-gay. no-good.

what im trying to say is, GO watch. but please don't bring your sister, brother or anyone under 18. no! under 20 it should be.
tell me that im acting innocent. duhh.


bayliey;

pretending you're cool is cool;

ahhhh..everbody just loves final exam. it's so fascinating and relaxing, isn't it??

hell NO.

come to me my first paper, 31st of august. i can't wait to meet and kiss you my love, SURVEY. i'm going to knock you down owh yeahh.

i promise i got you.


bayliey;

Was she the reason you stomped on my heart, and moved on so quickly;

i used to hate white. i don't know, it just that the colour didn't fit me quiet well.

but i love white wedding dresses. i love white now.

but still, the next dress that i'll show you guys is totally the bomb.! my favourite! exactly like what i have imagined all this time. the colour, the design, EVERYTHING! it feels so right haha. but i hate the fact im not gonna wear it or else my dad will kill me. i fell in love with it from the very first moment i saw it.

yes, i want to wear black for my wedding. totally.

and hell yes, i want to get married now!



bayliey;

It's been so long now you've forgotten how to smile;

i got my competent license just now. finally, after 6 months of torturous waiting.

and here's the funny part. i swept the house, like usual. then i passed across my brother's room, his room was just hell messy as he is, i can't stand it so i cleaned up his room and his double-hell-messy desk as well. i put all his books in one place, in a right order and good arrangement i guess, so i really hope he will appreciate that.

then there was like one card, small one, written 'for a special baby with a special love'. haha i knew it straight away when i looked at that. i read it, i know it was wrong but i can't help myself staying good. that girl must be seriously brave and im sure it took lots of courage to do that. i don't think it would be right to spill the content here, but ahhh everybody knows love letters right?

finally, final touch, the desk is clean and i put the card next to his handphone. he should notice that when he come back from school in 3 hours. owh come on, i found the card in a million of his books. he should appreciate that girl. at least the card. i mean, she has feelings too hey. and i let my mom read it. im sooo evil. we both laughed and my mom suprised how could someone fell for my brother.

owh mom, tell me something i don't know?


bayliey;

take me somewhere in memory lane;

halllu people with nice hearts and smiles.!

i want to correct this. i THOUGHT my mom was turning 50. but my bad, it supposed to be 48. i know right?? i can't believe i forgot my mom's age! this is sooo unforgivable. kill me.

i told my mom that happy 50 and she turned red and yelling, '48 la baru!!!' and i was like sit there, doing nothing, stunned for a moment. then i was defending myself. seriously 48? coz it seems like forever i've been listening to that. i think it's almost 3 years i've been asking my mom her age and still, i got the same answer. was it my mom's fears in growing old or was it my brain with less neuron?

whatever, im sorry mom. and i just did what u want me to do. mention about the your REAL age in my blog.

(she was really serious and eager about wanted me to clear things up)


bayliey;

it's not over, til it's over so how do we begin;

okay, im so freaking tired today. i slept for only 2 hours. dang. my group mates and i had been dragging our asses off and stayed up for the whole night to finish our project, and now, at this time, we should present it at our lecturer's room. how could that possible because im here now, writing my blog with tears of joy. as for;

no more classes, no more dang shitty assignments, no more quizzes that make me wanna kill myself, and im going home im going home! just one problem, i don't wanna know my carry marks.i bet they are all horrible. (i hope not)

oh boys, i never feel this kind of homesick since i was form 3. can't wait to go home and kiss my guitar with my YM is on for my bff.

and yes, leaving my G at home is a big no-no to me. tensions are rising without that.


bayliey;

speak for yourself honey;

you know you're good. you confident that you're good. because you're famous here? or is it because you're smart?good grades and all that. and people are watching you all the time? i like you. i really do. but i can sense it now that you're not the person you used to be. humble and nice. yeah you still nice.

but i think you're changing, slowly now. i noticed that. and i hate the fact that i should remove you from being my idol.

you are right. people change.



bayliey;

they say we can't measure heart. in fact, we can't measure anything. heart, belongs, needs. we can't measure HOPE.


- Nathan, One Three Hill -


bayliey;

i threw all of your stuff away, then i cleared you out of my head, and i tore you out of my heart.


bayliey;

it's like you're leech, sucking my life from me;

okay,

now tell me, who likes kouru?ben? i think they are awesome! for heaven's sake sometimes i don't get it how could some people be so talented and gifted?? if only i know how to draw, or sew, or how to fix my 17th earphones, how to solve the dang assignments in 18 minutes or at least how to cook like my mom, i will be so grateful and happy that i could die.

and i love reading MANGA too. japanese's cartoonists are so funny and they just know how to make the stories interesting and keep people's eyes on it for hours. i can finish 8 books in one day. my friend said it's not good as it keeps me fantasize all the time, but hey, i won't go that far okie.

and i don't understand, seriously don't understand, why it's always the stories about girls chasing guys? or a girl that fell in love with a guy, hiding her feelings, girls that confess their love for guys, it's always about girls that make the first move. but it's okay with me. because i think i am one of them. gosh, confession.

bayliey;

i hate myself for being stiff-necked;

when the final is just another few weeks, the lecturers always cancel their classes.
what can i say.
i love it.


seriously, im freakin' love it.
well who doesn't?


bayliey;

mom's name,

mdm rahmah daud.

i always adore you. red for love.

happy birthday ibu;

today's my mom's birthday.
i still can't manage to call her. my phone is out of credit but yeah, still my fault. no excuses.
but i just want you to know mom, that i love you. so much. i couldn't give the world to you, but at least i will dedicate my life for you.
said i'd die for you, and i would.

we always fight. but i will always come back to you.
because you are my life.

happy birthday mom. you're 50 now.
but you don't look your age. at all. ask the neighbours.

wait till i get my 1st salary, i will buy you a wardrobe full of jeffery archer's and sydney sheldon's books.


bayliey;

ame penah cakap kat aku,

'kau ni kalau makan yek yek jek eh'

dengan muke hairan berkerut pandang aku.

'asal?'

'yela,makan yek yek jek kan. macam mende tu sedap sangat'

aku senyum jek. aku rase tekak aku mmg tak kesah. nasi kawah ke, nasi hangit ke, kurang garam ke, semua aku telan. nak buat canne. aku me mang suke makan.

and aku suke gile tengok orang makan dengan berseleranye. sangat cumel.


bayliey;

i always find that morning glory is a symbol of the beginning of a new day.


-khairunie-





bayliey;

you can't hold me back no more, your not even worth me writing lyrics for;

it's 11.11 am.
in 'Witch Yoo-Hee' korean drama series, the hero said this to the witch,

'look, it's 11.11 . if you're looking at the clock with these numbers showing up, it means that somebody is thinking of you.'

but why whenever im looking at this time, i THINK of you?



bayliey;

he's looking good tonight
i love the way he glows in ultraviolet light
intoxicate my mind
i know that love is blind and i'm not seeing right
not alright


bayliey;

ultraviolet;

Mrs halloween
Is drinking at the bar again in New Orleans
She throws another dart
It narrowly avoids my lonely broken heart
Torn apart

bayliey;

the reasons why sky is blue;

hola bloggers,

im in the mood today. so far..
i want to give these people compliments.

tia; alway be there for me. and your advices are all good. it helps me through my tough times.
pipa, kaka and ajie ; i can't ask for others to be my housemates and best friends.

i miss ms saby a.k.a bree. hope we'll meet up soon.
thanx zap for being the slumber friend. EVER. and for being silly.
khairunie ; coz she inspires me. a lot. her blog is beyond amazing. http://nurulkhairunie.blogspot.com/

to those people who help me, and give me lots of dang bloody good memories to smile on, you guys rock my world.


bayliey;

Life might not stand on our side, so we'll decorate our side with colourful, happy balloons and strings to get our life back! :D


-hawanasir-


bayliey;

test berlambak beratur tunggu dijawab minggu ini.
kalau lagi 2 saat aku tak study aku mati.


bayliey;

the reasons why i hate uploading my pix;

1) i don't have good pictures.
2) i don't have decent pictures.
3) i rarely taking pictures.

and..

it takes forever.


bayliey;

there is one world. once u stepped in, you can't get out.
i think im stuck in that world.

please help me out.!
owh God...


bayliey;

i want the world to know how beautiful you are;

remember when you tell me that u want your eyes like kate bosworth, your lips like angelina jolie, your body like jessica alba?
well, you don't need to change anything, because i like the way you look.

it is you.
and it is a beauty to me.

bayliey;

captivated by the way we look tonight;

women are so weird, they will always telling you something different than what they really mean.

but girls are different, they will always telling you something you don't wanna hear, and i believe it drives you crazy.

i don't know which category that im in.
but im sooo real okay.
i have an ovum.


bayliey;

you can always throw your heart away because i, will always pick it up back for you.

bayliey;

all in one place;

i always want to go there.
to taste every single step that im taking, to smell the breathe at every piece of the corners, to eye every single rock and stone of the buildings; and to know that i have that memories, that got me smiling when im old.
things might change,
but my desire will always stay the same.





bayliey;

when i first saw you;

im drooling over this one!!!
you are sooo..bold.

when i first saw you, i knew one day you will be mine.

bayliey;

you guys are my melody;

i arrived last night at almost 2am.it was like so sudden. i didn't planned to go home yesterday. then my cousin called and asked me to go home cause she was there, about going to my house and want to turn out my room to hell. so there's no way i could let that happen so i called intan and asked her if she was still around. because she was already gone for almost 20 minutes to KL with yasin. i thought.
it turns out to be that intan was still around, and she's willing to pick me up from jusco. as soon as i reached my rent house, i was running and packing and sweating like a lost pig. and 5 hours later, ' im home!! '

i got to see my tok ngah and nek ngah. kak tiara also. but no a'an. i miss him. last time i saw him, he was small and short. but nek ngah said that he's much taller and fat. haha, what to expect. it's already 3 years since last time i saw and spoke to him. guess like i will see you again in next 3 years farhan. stay to be a kid. i love you that way. ;))

now i believe that distance is nothing. we can still work it out.

and my cousins, they are such a real deal. i love them.so much.

bayliey;

i can't believe,i fell for this;

i fell through the hole down at the bottom of your soul, didn't think you could go so low, look at what you've done you're losing me here's what you've won, got me planning to go, solo.

-solo-

bayliey;

call me greedy;

god knows how bad i want that bloody beautiful blackberry bold!

can' wait to work.
seriously.

bayliey;

how could you be my greatest fear when i love u the most?

tsunami was way good beyond my expectation.
go watch.

this unsatisfaction will never go away,
why should u die??

bayliey;

less than nothing;

All this time you've been telling me lies
hidden in bags that are under your eyes
and when i asked you i knew i was right

but if you turn your back on me now
when i need you most
but you chose to let me down
down
down.


.

bayliey;

together we cry;

And does he make your blood race, your skin tingle, and your heart pound?




i wish i knew the answer.
.

song:

You ruined me - JC Chazes

less than 60 days;

.
tetibe terase sedih. aku masih tak bersedia nk balik.malas giler.sumpah.
so aku da bertekad, masok jek bus,lepas mak aku da ilang dr pandangan (derr), ak dgn segera akan bace doa ngan ayat qursy 3 kali, pastu ak pasang walkman, pastu membute sampe ak sampai.
it takes more than 5 hours.like usual. i just knew it.

kelas pagi pule tue.
adeh.terase seperti bau-bau untuk tidak ke kelas.

kau mmg stiff-necked izza. subjek hydraulic kot. kalo pandai xpe.
PEGI KELAS!!

.

too late to apologise?

.
apahal la aku ni keras kepala sgt?
and knape la plak kalo nk ckp ngan aku asyik nak marah marah?
adoi.

tak boley handle btol!

penat begadoh.mau hidup seperi dulu.

..

everybody knows the end, when curtain hits the floor;

.
my day was fabulous. not that fabulous but hey, got friends by my side is more than fabulous to me.
tomorrow i need to wake up early.
by 7am (impossible i know. memandangkan saye sedang come.moon.so it is impossible))
we need to rush to get shafiq to the airport on time. and tonight, ill be busy to help my mom for our open house tomorrow.

please do come.
kg sg ramal dalam, seksyen 8, bandar baru bangi.

sebarang masalah sile roger.

and yes, i will miss our moment together, my friends. how i wish this wont come to an end.

and have a safe flight mohd syafiq zamasri. (sorry if i spelled u wrong.beat me.)
tomorrow's gonna be great.
insya ALLAH.

xoxo

we got no worries in the world;

.
just got back from raya raya desa raya. with tia.
went to ammar's and shafiq's house.
tell me how long it was i didnt get to see shafiq in person.
he's just so..growing.haha. i mean the height.
haha no offense boy.

nazuan has fever. poor boy.
and paan has to go back to kulim tomorrow.
so they both cant make it.
for our raya raya desa raya.
kinda sad.
but life goes on.
cewah.

and lots of plans are waiting for me tomorrow. i am sorry. waiting for us. yes.
but there's only one plan that could make me shaking.
yeah.

that one.
.

eid.

.
di kesempatan ini saye ingin mengucapkan
selamat hari raye aidilfitri.
maaf zahir batin

kepada semua yg mengenali saye.
saye taw saye byk buat silap
so saye minx sorry byk2.
kite kan manusia biase.
mane ade manusia yg tak buat silap ek?

okeh, keyword;

SORRY.

and thanx to those who accept me the way i am.
i love you guys for that.

sorry hari raye ke 6 baru nak mintak maaf.
lupe banyak buat dose.

xoxo

fake.

sometimes
words can't describe how much i hate myself.
really really really hate myself.
REALLY.

more than words;

.
this is the story about 2 weeks ago. ( i think)

THE NIGHT WAS AMAZING!!

okay we had bbq, me and the crew. i wish i can tell you everything but for now, the words are;
the crew, the meat, the ham, the lamb ahh what-so-ever it called, the weather, the beach, the summon (hell.), the time (double hell - i skipped 3 hours lecture next morning! argh!), music of nature, god, what a blast.

suddenly i have no words.

tho the first night was kinda sux.bcoz of the rain. dun get me wrong i love rain.
but the weather was terribly bad at the first night. the boys were so like seriously focus to create their greatest bonfire but unfortunately. percuma aja dong.

masak sikit punye banyak.last2 xjadi. postponed malam kedua. this time we decided buat bbq kat pantai bersih je. (bersih abess)

but overall..it was great.n kinda shocking.

it's weird how could people that we barely know
would say such nice things about us.

how i wish you could feel the same.

and everything's right;

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep

freaky to beauty;

she is an icon to me.

look at that chain.

it's perfect.

haha

everyone should cherish their friendship like this.

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m_mariam53 says:
is that HER BEDROOM??????HOLY SHIT!!! please tell me im wrong

Posted 2 months ago. ( permalink )

and yes.

please tell me that im wrong too.

song;

Disarm - amie miriello.

and im no-kidding when i said u have such a great taste b.

.

mirror mirror hanging on the wall, you don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all;

weather~.....

Day : thursday
Ticket : 5pm
Bus : xigt
Heading to : terminal shah alam. (never been there)

come pick me up bill.
easily lost i am.
and wear the mask b.

Guess that times like these remind me
That I've got to keep my feet on the ground.


..

don't push the explosion button;

.

you're nice
you're smart
you're fun (maybe)

i like you but please
i guess you saw my awkwardness
i was uncomfortable!

get your hands off of me!

stay at least 5 feets away from me.

even my boyfriend hasn't touched me!
yet.

urgh.

seriously.out.

came without a reason;

life is unpredictable.
people come and leave.

sometimes it took me so long to realize that this life is too short for anger.
we never know when our time would come,
and it never fails to make me shaking.

and im hoping for the best for my family.and my loved ones.always.
please don't take any of them from me.
at least not yet.
take me instead.

.

could this panic ever trying to stop?

please do

.stop.

.

shadows bleeding through the light, where a love once shined so bright;

.

im freezing here.
this cold is killing me.

me in the lab.computer lab.
supposed to check the note through the blog of my lecturer.
*gile maju.
but sorry to say sir.
these kids *including me
are going to give you pain in ur a**.
or eyes.
u wouldn't like what ull see.
hilmi is drawing his new design of electric guitar. not to mention it looks perfect!
ajim is in his way to sleep.
pipa and myspace, cicin with her tonnes of pictures need to be uploaded,
axie must be stalkering some perverts.haha owh bahase..kurang sopan betol.
hafiz looks like he got something in his pants that he cant even sit for 2 minutes.
other students are checking their mails and surfing facebook.
some of them,not to mention the 'obeyed' ones
do open the blogsite.haha.
salute.

i can't wait to watch 'UP' with bil.
im going to get my tix.ASAP.
so far so great.
the plan looks perfect.
for.now.

since no one listens to you sir,
sorry but i need to visit my ultimate-guitar.net
it's been a long time i cant stand the torture anymore.
sorry thank you.

almost here - delta goodrem and brian mcFadden

happy ramadhan.
may god bless' u.

.

i heart you. so smile;

.
i saw my friends with laughter
and tears.
it's okay every single person has their own opinions.

it's weird how your life could possibly turn the other way around in one second.

they told me, "mingle mingle''
i told them, ''i dun feel like to..''
"those such things,happen to somebody who is faithful."
"really?so you want me to do the same?like two-timing?"
"it's not like you're getting married or something.just get to know other people.scandal."
''well,making friends is okay with me.more than that.i dunno''
''they cant be trusted''

true.but i dun think we have to be that way too.
love is precious.
appreciate it.
if ur broken heart is still bleeding,
just chill and say,
what goes around comes around.

there you go.

.

running, with love on my face;

.
weather~~ raining.so.hard.here.

i love rain.but since i have surveying subject.
i hate rain.and how the hell there was still hot here?
omg i know.my sins are killing me.
rain did nothing.

ok here's the deal.
independent day is sooo on next week.
i hope u will come to kl bff,
we could hang out til we puke.
and get yourself that so-dead-important-mask
the virus is killing people right now.
takpelah xpe,let me get u one.

tolonglah turun or else i only got esah for girls' pillow talk.
seriously i dun feel like going home.
bad bad daughter i am.
sorry mom.

so sorry if im not showing much love to you.
just so you know that i am.
really love you.

song :

cobra starship feat leighton meester - good girls go bad


out

Calls to mind a silver screen, And all those sad goodbyes;

.


song of the day :

careless whisper - george michael.

haha it's my parents' love song.oh boy.

.

another blow, another tear through my chest;

.

God knows how much i...

well,

forbidden to remember,
terrified to forget,
it is a hard line to walk.

show me how bad u want it.
fight for me so i'll know u're worth it.


"i know u have heard this so many times izza.but u are still stupid!!"

"yeah.i know."


.

between pain and nothing, i'd chosen nothing;

weather~ not so good for me. sick.urgh this haze..

i watched 'the proposal'. *lame yeah yeah.
hell-larioussss.
haha ryan renold is the man.dang he's good.
and the movie was absolutely incredible..
i can't stop laughing..and my cheeks was hurt.duh.

and last friday,
pipa wanted us to overnight.island la of coz.
ape je pon yg ade kat penang ni.selain laut.
i was excited at first.but then i felt like i juz wanna stay home.
pipa made a saddy-saddy-sound and asked me to join her.
naseb baek la ko besfwen aku.

but since we out from da house at 10 pm.so then we waited for almost 1 hour kat jeti,
and i wasn't cursing because i was too busy watching 'Lizzie mcGuire the movie' in pipa's car.
*yeah i know.call me miss lame. i used to love hilary duff okayyyy~~
but still stupid punye feri.

okay let me make this clear,
me and pipa - one car
then right behind us, there's amer,cicin and ajie. amer's car
then amer lead us to 'pantai awam'
this one is seriously gorgeous. arrived,and saw that big hugeeee bonfire like amazingly owhyeah!
and some of amer's friends.i didnt know them.

we were taking some pix.with amer was acting cool. *i dun even know if that was necessary.
and suddenly, there's a cake.cute one.and snacks are everywhere.
(yasin masak sedap boley.and thanx for the bbq.lol.)
i was like,'owh it's ajie bday!!!but why they're planning without me??'
coz cicin jusk asked me bout ajie's bday that day in da morning.i thought they havent prepared for anything yet.
here it comes the best part,or should i say the shockest part.
they're not only celebrating ajie's bday,mine too.GOD.
speechless.and i knew cicin wasn't joking about wanted to celebrate ajie's bday with mine coz they never celebrate my bday.it's always on holiday.

thanx guys so much.it's perfect.
haha i had never imagined that ill be able to celebrate my bday at the beach.
with bonfire of coz.and the boys,they are nice.
tho that one of them was seriously..remind me of someone.
and that long conversation..hoho. that was pretty fun ;p
i can't believe i stayed up all night long.
the rest of the night was amazing.i love beach.always do..

and i love the tree.
okay i will upload piccas later ~

song of the day :

busted - losing you

out.

the way i lost my heart to you that day;

.

if you truly love something let it go.
if it comes back it was meant to be.

one of my besties,

PIPA : bestfriend, housemate, facebooker, good listener, generous one, patient, bla bla bla~~
(too much good things in her.lol.)

pipa said this to me yesterday;

"now u know my feelings right?so painful.i felt like i was losing myself. i seriously can't forget E (bukan huruf sebenar).i think i just love him too much.im the one with problems.it was not his fault. so now i keep doing stupid things and hang out all the time to keep myself busy.if that's the only way to make me forget.him."

me said;

"pipa get over it (cewah konon). in time u'll find somebody. there's lots of fish in the sea (ayat drama seot.geli giler) ko jangan asyik keluar je boley. mate da lebam kalo yepon nk bz kan diri g ler tido ke hape ke ni kluar balik lambat bla bla bla xcukup tido bla bla bla~~ boley mati bla bla bla ko nak mati ke?? bla bla bla kesian ko paaa~~ "

pipa said;

"aku xboley ko paham tak? i have no other choice or else ill keep thinking bout him. kalo ak tido bangun2 da xigt dier pon xpe.xkesah.kalo ade owg len suke aku pon xpe gak.tho i have no more 'sel'. "

the best ayat is,

"kalau ade someone yang suke kat aku, tolonglah g amek hati aku kat die"

"please do take my heart from him"

i was speechless. poor u pipa.
dun worry,i will make sure no more tears for u okay??


good job LOVE.
greatest killer in the world.

.

my heart skipped a beat, easily;

.
okay next morning,
my bus at 930 am.i need to wake up early.
i hate kajang's terminal.
sooo like empty.
like seriously im off to bed now.

i will miss this moment.being in campus wouldn't give me much time to update.
whatever i will try.
owh dad why it has to be this way?
ttsskkk lol.

penang be nice.

song :
chills in the evening - McFly
(sorry im such an obsessorrrrrrrrrrrrrr)

out

needing a powerful ultraviolet sound proof bathroom door;

why is everybody loves disturbing me whilst im bathing?
GAWD
they just love seeing me suffer.


song for this entry

Fightstar - Amethyst

dancing in the rain is perfect for me;

.

haha still at home.
watching my favourite movie of the day.
u guys dun wanna know ;p

im a monser today.
i eat all the time.what the hell i dunno why.
my body would'nt wanna co-operate with my brain
whatever.

supposed to have a long lasting conversation last night with bff
girls' pillow talk
blame my dad. ~sigh~
but thanx babe.i got ur back like u got mine.
the songs are fantabulous thanx
ahaha
btw it's raining hard this morning.
my slept was distracting by that,for a second.
the 1st thought was, 'what the fish.?awhh my bag's still at the yard!!'
then i was like, whatever and dozed off.

now it's never gonna dry.

im laughing all the way around
so hard to keep myself distracting
keepin' myself busy
and they said im happy crazily funny
hahahah yes i am.
find the word torn.

out.

it's a blessing in disguise;

.

my day was pretty fun,
thanx la la lyn,
tolong jgn asyik menyemak kat facebook jek,haha
and sure u are the next isla fisher shopaholic girl!
but i love you.
we've been friends since we were 10 right?
almost 10 years. owh god.
10 YEARS .
wow.

no big apple :( btw
but it's okay, i had fun
lyn said that i always looked excited,and energetic.
haha pardon?tell me something i don't know?? :)
drink gatorade.yeah don't. i hate that.
im sorry if i was too fast for you to catch up lyn
ko pancit awal sangat. baru jalan 5 jam.
from pavillion to sungei wang to isetan
i was feeling refreshing! and sooo alive.haha
now im restless.my head hurts owh yeaaahh..

and that's not the end
i got another suprise
bil's bestfriend, kinda like mine too ;p
won 4 passes to worldstage concert what-so-ever-it-called
and she wants me to go. bill too of coz.haha im blessed!
thanx wewe honey.
i wasnt that excited at first. but then i found out that pixie lott is in the list!
i LOVE her voice.like amazingly amazing!
so if i got the chance and no replacement classes for bill,
i will go. probably. but it's totally okay wewe if u want to hand out
the pass to somebody else.i dont mind. ^_^
tho i met her for the first time at archie's showcase,
i think that was 4months ago,
just wanna say thank you bcoz u're being so nice to me.
*hugsies.

and bil,i love you mucho2 hey.
we're one and the same.
i still demi,and u stay be selena.
;)


song for this entry:
pixie lott - use somebody.

.

i'm pretty gangster myself;

windy morning;
yeah morning,i woke up early today

on my way to catch my supposed-to-be- fun day
with leen.
im done.leen's not.
im still waiting for her.
come and pick me up la la leen.
cant wait for pavillion.
i want 'big apple'
besar punye~ hakhak *sile tiru gaye lufia

i put lipstick on my lips, then i washed it off
like usual,since i was a kid
what can i say.
i juz love licking my lips,like archie.
LIZARD .
i already knew that i will feel the 'awkwardness'
and disgusting everytime i wear that.
but why still i wear it.
yes . bcoz im an idiot
and this idiot still didn't managed to get her tix last night.

.

a thousand lines on my face telling u my stories;

hey peeps.
what's your mood today?
pick one.

this morning it was a lil bit extraordinary.than usual.
when i woke up and walked straight away to my mirror.
i was staring at my face. myself . me .
and there's something in my eyes.like i didnt noticed that before.
it was my eye lashes.
it's pretty different today. keep staring at the mirror
and was musing over the perfect memories of the past
knowing that it wont come back.
then i was bursting out laughing.
and yes i felt stupid.
i think i need a hammer.and stamp my head with that.
it better be a good day.

im a bit jealous of those people who have their routine
i mean,they have plans. they know what to do next after next.
it's not that i dont have anything in mind.
i have lots.time is all that i need.

so that's why my wish for today is :

hoping for my face to stumble up on a car right after i stepped out of my front door
to pick up my laundry
alphard might be nice.
i need that car to go get my tix,!for GOD' sake izza!
procrastinate is such a right word for u!
or...hmm..
i could drive the car straight away to penang.
and showing off my alphard to every single hot guy around campus.
emmm*thinking thinking~~

ok.!that's not the point.
the point is that now i don't have a transport
means that i still dun get my tix, yet!
so then i dunno what time is left for me.
i dont wanna take dat 'night bus'.
im scared.and im alone. so double scared.
for now im thinking bout taking a bus at 3 pm.
is that okay?so if my bad luck is already gone,
the bus supposed to arrive at 8 pm.
but for my record,none of the public transports that ive been using all this time,
will arrive on time.
seriously not even close.
even my flight was delayed. once.
screwed that.
usually it takes 7-9 hours. crazy.
baek aku balek kempas johor tros kalo camtu.
owh last week i arrived on time.for the first time in my 2 years ++
since i went to penang.
i won't forget that. the lucky one.

okeh no more words ill go get my tix tonite.
and not with alphard la of coz.
*frustrating yet smiling


song of the day
fences - paramore

out.

when two different worlds collide;

i dunno what to write.
dang cold here at my place.
feels empty.
i think i lost my focus now.
nothing seems right.
i said i can't do every single thing right!

wait wait.
owh yes i need to get my ticket to penang
ASAP.
lucky me
leen asked me to follow her this friday to renew her licence
kat KL.huh.not to mention that i need to renew mine as well.
juz now i went to post office.
like usual.got my number.waiting.then stepped out with nuthin
i need to go to cheras.gile jauh.
my bad luck.on repeat.
then she wants to do her shopping shopping thing. pavillion maybe.
her favourite place.
im not in the mood for shopping now. juz want to get some fresh air.
seriously i need that like so bad.uh.uh.

my wish for today :
please let me win a tix to england.
seriously i need a vacation.


song of the day;
POV (point of view) - mcfly.

out.
i said out people.

salamat po

.

dear carla ,
ur seriously nice
like seriously
thank you *teary eyes.

btw,if i can come to manila,i probably will
thanx for mentioning my name in ur vlog.
such an honour hey.
btw, bill and i will try our best to send u our vlog.
*haha.wondering how and when thats gonna happen

we're miles apart
but still u gave me reasons to smile ;p
hope ure doing fine there
dun worry bout me. im absolutely fine.
one more hurt wont give me any difference btw
bahahaha

okie dokie
mahal na mahal kita.

c'est la vie.

nice one.

.

...

'Now you told me on a sunday
That it wasn't gonna work~~~'

the rest in this awesome song

'Everytime You Lie' - Demi Lovato.

awesome song awesome voice awesome lyrics
good job demi.
and thank you.

~the soul you'll never see again,
won't be showing scars~~

huhu
i cant believe ive been
listening to this song the whole day.!


.

...

song of the day

transylvania


out

berat berat.

sometimes stranger is nicer than
the one we already know.


ape kate kalian?

virus.toxic.

okeh.
on 22th of july, i was rushing to go to my 1st class of the day.
at 12 pm.
but then we arrived,late as usual,
campus was in chaos.like seriously.
everybody was all around LP and talking and chatting and screaming
whatever. i juz want to know 'what's happening hey?'
then we went to mak guard *ahak. cicin,pipa and me
we were being friendly like so sudden and she told us that campus is already closed til 28th of july
owh.that virus la of course.
i was happy and cicin and i went to get our ticket at jeti.
next day at 9 am.

we arrived kat pudu at 2 pm and my cuzzie got class.
then me and cicin decided nak lepak2 kt times square.
sampai kol 6pm. gile lame.pastu dy nk blik kuantan teros.
cicin pon pegi meninggalkan aku. *hey im strong.
i was waiting for my cuzin to come and pick me up.
owh not so fast,he came at 7 *lame gle ak tgu boley!
kitowg g jln2 and makan sundae then dy kol kwn dy ajak hang out skali
and last2 kitowang decide nk tgk the taking of pelham 1,2,3
best gak la. denzel washington is sooo cool.
and akim's friend..he was cool and friendly.
mizan kot name dy.ha,yelah tu.

and aku ingat nak stay over kat uia 1 mlm.
tido bilik lissa.abes tgk muvie *tiket kol 9.50.abes nk kol 12.
akim sengal pecut cam haram.
woah seriously i was scared.like hell.
da la moto tempat dok blakang cam batu. sakit pinggang ak.
at the same time..aku cuak juge.
kalo2 tetibe ak xboley masok uia dan akim disaman.
mane ak nk tdo mlm tu?
tepi highway?
then tetibe ade police lak kat entrance uia.
cuak cuak doa doa.
naseb lepas. then akim wat2 ketawa.kunun2 cam hebat la dpt lepas.
walhal ak tau dy pon cuak haram gak.
as soon as i saw lissa hepi gile weh.lame gle tak jumpe.
then the rest of the night was amazing.
thanx esah for the bed,the pillow,the toiletries, lappy.twlight! haha~~
thanx mucho2. te kiero!

and to akim thanx cuzzie.best cozin ever.
sanggup anta ak kat kajang.nanti ak blanje big apple.hak3.
seriously,ko mmg sengal. hot stuff abes.

p/s hey,thank u so much for the memories.dun wory im fine.

out