rain~rain come and stay~

weather~ it's raining.

seriously on time
i really need the rain
and now rain it is.~
rain never makes my day goes gloomy
or morose
it's juz a weather
but it's a perfect weather for me inside
>_<





still shining.

best quote so far~

prayers will never be answered until your heart stays in
peace








.it's true.

hepi bday sweetie~

date: 1st of June 2009
weather~ i feel bad.i was late!

because~~!!
when the sun shine will shine together
told you i'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
So come on out and stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more then ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
yeah you can always stand under my umbrella.

through whatever i know you'll be there for me
so am i.
so..happy bday
smoga pnjang umo murah rezeki.
hope ull get whatever you want~
i love you
nur affefa qazi mumtaz!!!!
=]
>_<

muahhhhhxxxx!

xoxo

marriage?

yeah!
forgot to tell you guys bout this
there were 2 or 3 of my friends
who're getting married last year..or this year..
i dun know
some of them are during the 'pregnancy' time now
im soooo shocked when this 'stuffs' come out from tia's
i've never been thought bout married.
i mean..in a serious way!
never!!
huhhh
i guess, it's really the time for me to think bout that kan
i have la the target and everything
but when i think about my friend
she's got a daughter.!
2-year-old-daughter
hah~i couldn't bear thinking of that
so..i want to lay down in my bed
and start thinking bout marriage now
goodluck to me!




freakin' out!!

human~~bleghhh~

how could you be so

heartless




whooo hooo

wondering is good.it shows you the truth!

one of my friends is asking for a permission to read his/her blog
gosh he/she knows my email
but he/she didn't invite me??
im sad
hah!
it's totally okay
im cool!
=]
im really really kewl.

results~results~go away~

weather~nervous

kinda nervous about the results.
usually i'll feel very happy when i heard my phone sings that archie's song
but now it turned to be the scariest thing of my life!
whenever i heard the message's comin' in
im shaking!
GOD!!
this can't be happening
but im realized bout one thing
sooner or later i have to go through that
there's no way back
just go straight
be positive
believe in GOD and i know HE 'll always be there for me
or be here with me
and trust archie's words
good things come to those who wait
i love this quote.
lol.

*still feeling the butterflies in my stomach~

hold on, so strong~

weather~one sweet day

a friend was asking bout my 50-all-time-love-songs. so here it comes~~

01. You Can ; David Archuleta
02. Because You Live ; Jesse McCartney
03. Thinking Of You ; Katy Perry
04. Too Close For Comfort ; McFly
05. Truly Madly Deeply ; Savage Garden
06. To be With You ; David Archuleta
07. Careless Whisper ; George Michael
08. That's When I Stop Loving You ; N Sync
09. All About You ; McFly
10. Beautiful Disaster ; Kelly Clarkson (acoustic version)
11. Angels In The Alleyway ; David Archuleta
12. Falling For You ; Busted
13. Catch Your Wave ; Click 5
14. Only Love ; Trademark
15. All Or Nothing ; O Town
16. Unintended ; Muse
17. Your Eyes Don't Lie ; David Archuleta
18. If Your Hearts Not In It ; Westlife
19. Everywhere ; Michelle Branch
20. Gone ; Daughtry
21. I'll Be ; Edwin Mc Cane
22. Like Only A Woman Can ; Brian McFadden
23. Alone ; Heart
24. Drowning ; Backstreet Boys
25. Losing You ; Busted
26. Your Guardian Angel ; Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
27. Tercipta Untukku ; Ungu
28. Hello ; David Cook (version)
29. This I Promise You ; N Sync
30. Kiss Me ; New Found Glory
31. Every Moment ; Joy Williams
32. You Found Me ; Kelly Clarkson
33. I Want To Spend My Life Time Loving You ; Marc Anthony and Tina Arena
34. Ayat Ayat Cinta ; Rossa
35. You And Me ; Lifehouse
36. Ain't No Sunshine ; Kris Allen
37. A Little Too Not Over You ; David Archuleta
38. Can't Take My Eyes Off Of You ; Heath Ledger or JerseyBoys
39. Say It Isn't So ; Gareth Gates
40. Music Of My Heart ; Gloria Estefan n N Sync
41. Purest Of Pain ; Son By Four
42. Only One ; Yellowcard
43. Smooth ; Rob Thomas feat Santana (santana is dammmmnnnn good!)
44. No Air ; Jordin Sparks n Chris Brown
45. Sempurna ; Andra and The Backbone
46. I Don't Need A Man ; Pussycat Dolls (err..i dunno if this is kinda a luv song or not.but i like it)
47. I Surrender ; Celine Dion
48. If We're a Movie ; Miley Cyrus
49. Just Feel Better ; Steven Tyler feat Santana
50. Why ; Full House OST (dun understand this one.but sure this is a luv song)
51. Heartless ; Kris Allen
52. Look After You ; The Fray (thanx to lissa baby)


sometimes,it's not just about the song.
it must come out with the good lyrics as well.
call me boring people..
haha,but i don't care. these songs are bloody good.
i dun give a single damn of what people think.

Sori tambah lagi 2!!
=]

are these the eyes of someone you could love

weather~ teh owg kg ini membantu pencernaan. hmm..hmmm

kris allen vs adam lambert

i love both of them.

one is genuine
one more is real
one is brilliant
one more is genius
one is spectacular
one more is powerful
one is an acoustic guy
one more is a high pic guy
one is a guy-next door
one more is a guy liner (haha..ryan is funny..)
one is honest
and one more is gentle

whoever wins, i really don't care coz they're both great and awesome
* walhal da tau sape yg mng.

well2.

everyone now knows the winner.

yaaaayyyy everybody!

xoxo

denying is fun

weather~ laughing3x.

ok
lame x update
tataw nk tulis pe snanye
tp td bill da bising soh berinternet
ye..era baru
technology...
wut should i say
well
just want to say that
i think my exam was sux
one paper to be exact
really frustrating
kinda dissapoint me
but life goes on
wutever happens i have to deal with it
my options
my actions
my self
so be it.
serve
me
right

yahuuu

no xoxo for this.

owh archie..you can..=]

friday
24th april 2009
weather~ 3 more papers to go! exhausted..


hallu hallu hallu!
hehe~
it's been a long time since the last time i wrote here.
so..cm da 18 taun ak bwu nk gtau pekehal nye ngan gmbo d bwh.
it's kinda long story so i juz want to make it short.
nabil got the passes for david archuleta's showcase at sunway lagoon amphitheater
she was like..got 9 passes bley x.
byk gler.
si gile david.
haha..
i wasn't that excited if you know what i mean,
it's juz that bill is sooooooo into him and it's kinda effect me..a bit..

before that we went to the gathering of david's club.
archuleta avenue malaysia, (the people were soooo nice!)
bill gave me the pass, we walked to the sunway's amphitheater from the sunway unversity college..
haha..waktu mak ak anta ak kan..dy tanye asal nk jmpe kt sunway.
so ak jus ckp yg nabil nk jmpe kt sunway. plus, dy ade gathering
mak ak tnye gathering pe..
ak ckp r gathering club dy..
smpai2 jek..ade banner club usahawan..
cm ade briefing pasal that thing la..haha
mak ak bley lak tanye, 'owhhh..dy nk gathering club ni ke..'
hah!ak gelak jek..at least ak x mnipu.
igt nk be honest ble ak blik pas tgk david nnt.
but, i was arrived at home cm pukol 1o mlm bley.
xkene bebel lak..
xjd ak nk gtau.
mati ak kene marah.


owh..back to the showcase.
the crowd was like BAMMM!
so many people came and they were sooooooooo.... excited.!
haha!!sakit telinge ak.
wut to expect. kate pon showcase. bkn pentomim pnye teater.
jj n ean as the emcees..bley tahan klaka r dowg.
ean is scary fair..putih gle muke dy. rendah diri sket
and the showcase supposed to start at 3pm. but i was waiting and sitting and sleepy, xcm kol 3.45 lak bwu start.
tp for the opening, hou ren nyanyi 2 lgu, alif OIAM nyanyi 2 lagu, daniel m'sian idol 2 lagu..
macam staun nk tgu david kluar.
peoples were like screaming and shouting like crazy coz david xkuar2.
then, bile dy kuar, hoho..cm gle owg ramai.
histeria terbaek pnye wa ckp sama lu.
including wewe. bil's fwen.
haha! btw wewe n ema, i had fun with u guys too..=]
n wewe..practice naim to mingle wit people. he was soooooo quite.eheh..

n malas nk story pnjg2..*ceh ceh..
ntah cne, AAMers wt suprise ktowg dpt backstage pass for cd signing n tangkap gambo ngan david skali.
*menaip ngan excited!!!
haha..david was like sooooo fair, clean n clear tanpe cela..
dy tak sombong n dy respons sape2 pon yg nk ckp ngan dy.
haha..btw, dy yg start pgang ak dulu eh! bkn ak yg start. sumpah! die pegang sume fans dy yg cm 50 owg yg dpt jmpe dy backstage tue. friendly gle tak..awww...
ak tgk dy kt tv mcm pendek,
tp da jmpe, bley lak ak paras telinge dy jek.
walhal ak pkai wedges kot
but..whatever pon..david..u're awesome!
unbelievable vocal range, amazing personality and u're the real rocker to me!!!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!* screaming sket..coz ak kt showcase dy xmenjerit lgsung ok!
n now im really looking forward for your 2nd album.

luv you david!
*haha..i said that to him.=]
n bill can't stop laughing at me bcoz of that incident.
heh~~
n i luv bil. thanx kerane berkongsi pengalaman ini.
u're the best.
for ur info, 1 day is not enough for me. huhu~~

xoxo

in this moment...

aaAaAaAaAAaAaaAaAaaa!!!!

i could not ask for more

they are the reason why i can breathe smoothly

and they are the reason why i come alive

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

if i were a boy, i think i could understand

monday
6th of april
11.53 am
weather~ asyik ujan jek. x kering baju2 aku!.

well well well.

today it's all about yesterday.

(memori la tue. berkias sket)

skang ak nk cter time waktu ak kecik2 dlu.

yg nk dga bley dga, yg xnk bace bley bla ke blog kwn2 ak yg len

dlu aku sangat ganas n kasar.

i think til now pon ak still kasar lagik.

dah terbiase. it's hard to change the way i am.

my ibu said, dlm byk2 adek ak, ak yg pling ganas skali.

n ak la anak nye yg start jln pling cpt.

pada umurku 9 bulan, aku da start berjalan n berlari.

haha~

kalo mak ak masak kt dapur, mak aku kunci grill, tkot ak bley bkak pintu n

get out from the house.

so, ble mak ak jenguk ak kt depan, dy terkejut tgk ak da xde

walhal mak ak da lock grill, skali tgk atas, ak da pnjat grill ke tahap tertinggi.

maka panik la mak ak dan segera la dy menurunkan ak.

skill pnjat memanjat ni mmg aku PhD la. xmen master2 nie. da lapok.

tabiat yg xdiketahui buruk atau baek ni

makin menjadi2 seiring ak meningkat dewase.

cewah

one sweet day, ak cm bosan, lalu ak pon kluar umah, panjat pokok mangge owg sbelah.

skali dga deruan moto n d sbalik simpang jln, ak nmpak kelibat bapak aku.

adoh shit!

dah terlambat.

bapak aku da nmpak.

i was freaking out like hell,

honestly ak da terbayang rotan bersama ayah aku.

sekuat tenage ak berlari msok dlm umah nyorok blakang pintu blek semayang.

silent~

silent~

no sound~

wait for it~

wait for it...~

" izaaaaaaaaaa!!!! "

yeah! cantek d ctow!

ak da tak ngat da pe yg berlaku.

cewah ayat nk cm drama.

ak wase of coz la ak kene pukul pnye,

panjat pokok mangge owg kot.

dah tu nk wat camne??

pokok mangge kt umah ak kecik lagi. bkn ak xnk,

ak da try pnjat, tp dy xdpt nk menampung berat ak ni,

ak lak yg jatuh.

boddo,

da la kura2 belaan ak ilang.

kucing lak mati.

(act bapak ak xkasi pon bela kucing, so ak bela kat luar jek)

abes ikan bilis mak aku,

ak cilok bg dy makan tiap2 ari ble ak blik skola

bley plak dy x kenang budi ak,

g mati lak.

hoho..wutever it was

it is my precious memory ever

the place i was living then

the friends i had

the crush that i still remember his name..

salman kot

kpd sesape yg bername salman yg penah tgl di sg jelok, kajang

dan terbace blog ini,

sile la contact saye kembali.

mungkin kte bley mencipta memori baru bersame2.

sob3~

tidakkah kamoo ingat dlu kite pernah bermaen basikal same2

dan tidak lupe juge kte pernah cube tok

membina jamban bersama2 menggunakan batu terbuang

di suatu kawasan lapang

*now i know why i took this civil engineering subject

huhu~

pape jela.

but still memori smalam will stay silently at the bottom of my bloody heart.

=]

xoxo

take me away, to a secret place

thursday
2nd of april
3.52 pm
weather~ tired tired tired

i wrote
im tired. hell like crazy.
more than 5 tests will be coming so soon * im juz too lazy to count
and with my lab reports..
ah ha. let me count this,

STRUCTURE lab = 20 lab reports
SOIL lab = 6 lab reports
BUILDING lab = 1 lab report *thank GOD. almost finish
TUTORIAL for BUILDING = xwat lgik. GREAT.

and credit to these becoming tests for adding my burden and increased my crazyness and angry.

tomorrow(friday); test math
sunday(5/4); test building (didn't they know it's weekend? stupid)
tuesday(7/4); test lab soil
test lab structure
wednesday(8/4); test lecture building
thursday(9/4); test soil lecture *im really scaredof this one. seyesly.

and i dun even know if i got these tests correctly in the line. too many things in my head.
tension bagai nk ghabak.
asal la UiTM d hatiku ini suke sgt berlumbe2 nk wt test ble da nk final??
asal asal asal?
this question has been stuck in my mind long long long time ago.
n i still hold it for our lecturers to answer it efficiently without freaking out. eheh.
i juz hope for every second i've used
for every moment i've suffered
for every time tension cracked in my head
i hope im worth it.

huh~

no xoxo
for now