marriage?

yeah!
forgot to tell you guys bout this
there were 2 or 3 of my friends
who're getting married last year..or this year..
i dun know
some of them are during the 'pregnancy' time now
im soooo shocked when this 'stuffs' come out from tia's
i've never been thought bout married.
i mean..in a serious way!
never!!
huhhh
i guess, it's really the time for me to think bout that kan
i have la the target and everything
but when i think about my friend
she's got a daughter.!
2-year-old-daughter
hah~i couldn't bear thinking of that
so..i want to lay down in my bed
and start thinking bout marriage now
goodluck to me!




freakin' out!!

human~~bleghhh~

how could you be so

heartless




whooo hooo

wondering is good.it shows you the truth!

one of my friends is asking for a permission to read his/her blog
gosh he/she knows my email
but he/she didn't invite me??
im sad
hah!
it's totally okay
im cool!
=]
im really really kewl.

results~results~go away~

weather~nervous

kinda nervous about the results.
usually i'll feel very happy when i heard my phone sings that archie's song
but now it turned to be the scariest thing of my life!
whenever i heard the message's comin' in
im shaking!
GOD!!
this can't be happening
but im realized bout one thing
sooner or later i have to go through that
there's no way back
just go straight
be positive
believe in GOD and i know HE 'll always be there for me
or be here with me
and trust archie's words
good things come to those who wait
i love this quote.
lol.

*still feeling the butterflies in my stomach~

hold on, so strong~

weather~one sweet day

a friend was asking bout my 50-all-time-love-songs. so here it comes~~

01. You Can ; David Archuleta
02. Because You Live ; Jesse McCartney
03. Thinking Of You ; Katy Perry
04. Too Close For Comfort ; McFly
05. Truly Madly Deeply ; Savage Garden
06. To be With You ; David Archuleta
07. Careless Whisper ; George Michael
08. That's When I Stop Loving You ; N Sync
09. All About You ; McFly
10. Beautiful Disaster ; Kelly Clarkson (acoustic version)
11. Angels In The Alleyway ; David Archuleta
12. Falling For You ; Busted
13. Catch Your Wave ; Click 5
14. Only Love ; Trademark
15. All Or Nothing ; O Town
16. Unintended ; Muse
17. Your Eyes Don't Lie ; David Archuleta
18. If Your Hearts Not In It ; Westlife
19. Everywhere ; Michelle Branch
20. Gone ; Daughtry
21. I'll Be ; Edwin Mc Cane
22. Like Only A Woman Can ; Brian McFadden
23. Alone ; Heart
24. Drowning ; Backstreet Boys
25. Losing You ; Busted
26. Your Guardian Angel ; Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
27. Tercipta Untukku ; Ungu
28. Hello ; David Cook (version)
29. This I Promise You ; N Sync
30. Kiss Me ; New Found Glory
31. Every Moment ; Joy Williams
32. You Found Me ; Kelly Clarkson
33. I Want To Spend My Life Time Loving You ; Marc Anthony and Tina Arena
34. Ayat Ayat Cinta ; Rossa
35. You And Me ; Lifehouse
36. Ain't No Sunshine ; Kris Allen
37. A Little Too Not Over You ; David Archuleta
38. Can't Take My Eyes Off Of You ; Heath Ledger or JerseyBoys
39. Say It Isn't So ; Gareth Gates
40. Music Of My Heart ; Gloria Estefan n N Sync
41. Purest Of Pain ; Son By Four
42. Only One ; Yellowcard
43. Smooth ; Rob Thomas feat Santana (santana is dammmmnnnn good!)
44. No Air ; Jordin Sparks n Chris Brown
45. Sempurna ; Andra and The Backbone
46. I Don't Need A Man ; Pussycat Dolls (err..i dunno if this is kinda a luv song or not.but i like it)
47. I Surrender ; Celine Dion
48. If We're a Movie ; Miley Cyrus
49. Just Feel Better ; Steven Tyler feat Santana
50. Why ; Full House OST (dun understand this one.but sure this is a luv song)
51. Heartless ; Kris Allen
52. Look After You ; The Fray (thanx to lissa baby)


sometimes,it's not just about the song.
it must come out with the good lyrics as well.
call me boring people..
haha,but i don't care. these songs are bloody good.
i dun give a single damn of what people think.

Sori tambah lagi 2!!
=]

are these the eyes of someone you could love

weather~ teh owg kg ini membantu pencernaan. hmm..hmmm

kris allen vs adam lambert

i love both of them.

one is genuine
one more is real
one is brilliant
one more is genius
one is spectacular
one more is powerful
one is an acoustic guy
one more is a high pic guy
one is a guy-next door
one more is a guy liner (haha..ryan is funny..)
one is honest
and one more is gentle

whoever wins, i really don't care coz they're both great and awesome
* walhal da tau sape yg mng.

well2.

everyone now knows the winner.

yaaaayyyy everybody!

xoxo

denying is fun

weather~ laughing3x.

ok
lame x update
tataw nk tulis pe snanye
tp td bill da bising soh berinternet
ye..era baru
technology...
wut should i say
well
just want to say that
i think my exam was sux
one paper to be exact
really frustrating
kinda dissapoint me
but life goes on
wutever happens i have to deal with it
my options
my actions
my self
so be it.
serve
me
right

yahuuu

no xoxo for this.

owh archie..you can..=]

friday
24th april 2009
weather~ 3 more papers to go! exhausted..


hallu hallu hallu!
hehe~
it's been a long time since the last time i wrote here.
so..cm da 18 taun ak bwu nk gtau pekehal nye ngan gmbo d bwh.
it's kinda long story so i juz want to make it short.
nabil got the passes for david archuleta's showcase at sunway lagoon amphitheater
she was like..got 9 passes bley x.
byk gler.
si gile david.
haha..
i wasn't that excited if you know what i mean,
it's juz that bill is sooooooo into him and it's kinda effect me..a bit..

before that we went to the gathering of david's club.
archuleta avenue malaysia, (the people were soooo nice!)
bill gave me the pass, we walked to the sunway's amphitheater from the sunway unversity college..
haha..waktu mak ak anta ak kan..dy tanye asal nk jmpe kt sunway.
so ak jus ckp yg nabil nk jmpe kt sunway. plus, dy ade gathering
mak ak tnye gathering pe..
ak ckp r gathering club dy..
smpai2 jek..ade banner club usahawan..
cm ade briefing pasal that thing la..haha
mak ak bley lak tanye, 'owhhh..dy nk gathering club ni ke..'
hah!ak gelak jek..at least ak x mnipu.
igt nk be honest ble ak blik pas tgk david nnt.
but, i was arrived at home cm pukol 1o mlm bley.
xkene bebel lak..
xjd ak nk gtau.
mati ak kene marah.


owh..back to the showcase.
the crowd was like BAMMM!
so many people came and they were sooooooooo.... excited.!
haha!!sakit telinge ak.
wut to expect. kate pon showcase. bkn pentomim pnye teater.
jj n ean as the emcees..bley tahan klaka r dowg.
ean is scary fair..putih gle muke dy. rendah diri sket
and the showcase supposed to start at 3pm. but i was waiting and sitting and sleepy, xcm kol 3.45 lak bwu start.
tp for the opening, hou ren nyanyi 2 lgu, alif OIAM nyanyi 2 lagu, daniel m'sian idol 2 lagu..
macam staun nk tgu david kluar.
peoples were like screaming and shouting like crazy coz david xkuar2.
then, bile dy kuar, hoho..cm gle owg ramai.
histeria terbaek pnye wa ckp sama lu.
including wewe. bil's fwen.
haha! btw wewe n ema, i had fun with u guys too..=]
n wewe..practice naim to mingle wit people. he was soooooo quite.eheh..

n malas nk story pnjg2..*ceh ceh..
ntah cne, AAMers wt suprise ktowg dpt backstage pass for cd signing n tangkap gambo ngan david skali.
*menaip ngan excited!!!
haha..david was like sooooo fair, clean n clear tanpe cela..
dy tak sombong n dy respons sape2 pon yg nk ckp ngan dy.
haha..btw, dy yg start pgang ak dulu eh! bkn ak yg start. sumpah! die pegang sume fans dy yg cm 50 owg yg dpt jmpe dy backstage tue. friendly gle tak..awww...
ak tgk dy kt tv mcm pendek,
tp da jmpe, bley lak ak paras telinge dy jek.
walhal ak pkai wedges kot
but..whatever pon..david..u're awesome!
unbelievable vocal range, amazing personality and u're the real rocker to me!!!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!* screaming sket..coz ak kt showcase dy xmenjerit lgsung ok!
n now im really looking forward for your 2nd album.

luv you david!
*haha..i said that to him.=]
n bill can't stop laughing at me bcoz of that incident.
heh~~
n i luv bil. thanx kerane berkongsi pengalaman ini.
u're the best.
for ur info, 1 day is not enough for me. huhu~~

xoxo

in this moment...

aaAaAaAaAAaAaaAaAaaa!!!!

i could not ask for more

they are the reason why i can breathe smoothly

and they are the reason why i come alive

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

if i were a boy, i think i could understand

monday
6th of april
11.53 am
weather~ asyik ujan jek. x kering baju2 aku!.

well well well.

today it's all about yesterday.

(memori la tue. berkias sket)

skang ak nk cter time waktu ak kecik2 dlu.

yg nk dga bley dga, yg xnk bace bley bla ke blog kwn2 ak yg len

dlu aku sangat ganas n kasar.

i think til now pon ak still kasar lagik.

dah terbiase. it's hard to change the way i am.

my ibu said, dlm byk2 adek ak, ak yg pling ganas skali.

n ak la anak nye yg start jln pling cpt.

pada umurku 9 bulan, aku da start berjalan n berlari.

haha~

kalo mak ak masak kt dapur, mak aku kunci grill, tkot ak bley bkak pintu n

get out from the house.

so, ble mak ak jenguk ak kt depan, dy terkejut tgk ak da xde

walhal mak ak da lock grill, skali tgk atas, ak da pnjat grill ke tahap tertinggi.

maka panik la mak ak dan segera la dy menurunkan ak.

skill pnjat memanjat ni mmg aku PhD la. xmen master2 nie. da lapok.

tabiat yg xdiketahui buruk atau baek ni

makin menjadi2 seiring ak meningkat dewase.

cewah

one sweet day, ak cm bosan, lalu ak pon kluar umah, panjat pokok mangge owg sbelah.

skali dga deruan moto n d sbalik simpang jln, ak nmpak kelibat bapak aku.

adoh shit!

dah terlambat.

bapak aku da nmpak.

i was freaking out like hell,

honestly ak da terbayang rotan bersama ayah aku.

sekuat tenage ak berlari msok dlm umah nyorok blakang pintu blek semayang.

silent~

silent~

no sound~

wait for it~

wait for it...~

" izaaaaaaaaaa!!!! "

yeah! cantek d ctow!

ak da tak ngat da pe yg berlaku.

cewah ayat nk cm drama.

ak wase of coz la ak kene pukul pnye,

panjat pokok mangge owg kot.

dah tu nk wat camne??

pokok mangge kt umah ak kecik lagi. bkn ak xnk,

ak da try pnjat, tp dy xdpt nk menampung berat ak ni,

ak lak yg jatuh.

boddo,

da la kura2 belaan ak ilang.

kucing lak mati.

(act bapak ak xkasi pon bela kucing, so ak bela kat luar jek)

abes ikan bilis mak aku,

ak cilok bg dy makan tiap2 ari ble ak blik skola

bley plak dy x kenang budi ak,

g mati lak.

hoho..wutever it was

it is my precious memory ever

the place i was living then

the friends i had

the crush that i still remember his name..

salman kot

kpd sesape yg bername salman yg penah tgl di sg jelok, kajang

dan terbace blog ini,

sile la contact saye kembali.

mungkin kte bley mencipta memori baru bersame2.

sob3~

tidakkah kamoo ingat dlu kite pernah bermaen basikal same2

dan tidak lupe juge kte pernah cube tok

membina jamban bersama2 menggunakan batu terbuang

di suatu kawasan lapang

*now i know why i took this civil engineering subject

huhu~

pape jela.

but still memori smalam will stay silently at the bottom of my bloody heart.

=]

xoxo

take me away, to a secret place

thursday
2nd of april
3.52 pm
weather~ tired tired tired

i wrote
im tired. hell like crazy.
more than 5 tests will be coming so soon * im juz too lazy to count
and with my lab reports..
ah ha. let me count this,

STRUCTURE lab = 20 lab reports
SOIL lab = 6 lab reports
BUILDING lab = 1 lab report *thank GOD. almost finish
TUTORIAL for BUILDING = xwat lgik. GREAT.

and credit to these becoming tests for adding my burden and increased my crazyness and angry.

tomorrow(friday); test math
sunday(5/4); test building (didn't they know it's weekend? stupid)
tuesday(7/4); test lab soil
test lab structure
wednesday(8/4); test lecture building
thursday(9/4); test soil lecture *im really scaredof this one. seyesly.

and i dun even know if i got these tests correctly in the line. too many things in my head.
tension bagai nk ghabak.
asal la UiTM d hatiku ini suke sgt berlumbe2 nk wt test ble da nk final??
asal asal asal?
this question has been stuck in my mind long long long time ago.
n i still hold it for our lecturers to answer it efficiently without freaking out. eheh.
i juz hope for every second i've used
for every moment i've suffered
for every time tension cracked in my head
i hope im worth it.

huh~

no xoxo
for now

life is not always wonderful

monday

10.10 pm

23 march 2009

weather~ risau risau risau

hey hey hey..

lme gle x singgah cni.

bese r..

bz gler nk mati.

so..all my stalkers are fine? hmm?

gud gud gud..

keep stalker'ing.

duh.

em..lately ak slalu igt kat family ak

ak homesick rupenye.

lucky jumaat lpas, on 20th of march,

rupe2nye skandal ak tiume kcik yg sbelah umah nenek ak tu nk kawen.

abang dier abang dier,

so ak cm xsaba gler nk g tgk.

ayat ak..

"da nak kawen da..dulu maen kejo2 lgik ngan ak..skang da nk kawen..

tak lame lagi..."

oops..ayat yg strosnye mst tlah ramai yg dpt menjangkekannye.

hahah~

so..ak pon blik la bus malam.

kol 10 pnye bus. sri maju. xplan pon, smpai2 jeti ade tiket on the time, tros sebat dan berangkat.

bersame ila, akhirnye sampe d medan gopeng.

haha~victory ak dapat blik.

thanx to luqman yg sudi mmberi jasa mghantar ak blik umah nenek ak.

*alah bkn jaoh sgt pon.

ak smpe umah time tu kol 12.45 kot.

nenek ak yg mseh terpisat2 segera membuke pintu tok ak.

glad she was okay. maybe too sleepy to nag. alhamdulillah..

ak pon tdo lepas mandi. sambel tdo dlm terang sbb ak tkot umah nenek aku.

waiting for next day.

ak bgn solat subuh, da xley tdo, coz nt nenek ak membebel.

ak pon tgu mak ak sampe..

tp dy kate jam kat sg besi.

so all i can do is waiting waiting waiting...

then i went to post office.

ak da post mende yg spatotnye ak post.

tp sampai ari ni dy tak msg ak.

xtaw dy dpt ke x mendenye.

sgt mendebarkan...

mungkinkah abang posmen berlaku curang?

mungkinkah kawan nye membuat dajal?

dun ask me. i dun know,

ak jus nk berdoa jek.

ceh ceh

aku risau nihhhhhhhhhhh!

tapi ak happy sgt bile family ak da smpe.

wase cm terang dunia.heheh..

terubat gak rindu aku kt family ak..

tho my dad was not there..

sob sob..

ayah ak bz sgt la lak..

aish!~

n ak tetbe rase ak da byk lak tulis.

mgkin ak nk mlpaskn windu pd sekalian manusia yg slalu tgk blog ak.

*eheh??

coz slame ini ak sgt bz

terkandas dlm kehidupan *wekk

tersekat dlm assignments

tersepit dlm lautan drama

n terlanjur bermaen2 melupekan study.

wut ever pon..

ak nk ckp..

i luv u bff.

thanx 4 everythin'

knape ak syg dier?

xpayahla ak nk ckp.

sbb dy kawan ak.

ooPs! bff ak. heheh

slalu igt ak.

n kalo dy tak buat mende yg sdg dy wat tok aku pon ak still syg dy sgt2~

xoxo

stalker kah?

wednesday
5.39 pm
weather~~ touching

okie dokie

bile aku bace blog kawan2 aku

ak wase cam best jek word 'stalker' tue

ye r, dowg sume ade stalker..

tp ak xde pon..

haha mengong

bcoz sumtimes aku wase sonok lak tgk dowg kutuk2 stalker dlm blog dowg

tp aku xleh lak nak kutuk sesape coz xde la plak owg

nk carik pasal ngan aku kan.

ke aku ade stalker tapi ak yang tak tawu?

bodo, da namanye stalker,

mane ak nk tau kalo xde orang habaq mai kat aku

aku bace blog luqman, bf zillawatie a.k.a cik latah millenium tue

aku wase touching gler

sayang gler luqman kat ila

beruntung gler ila.

huhu

aku wase bersalah lak pada mereka2 yang menyayangi aku tp aku xdpt nk balas

bkn xnak balas

x mampu nk blas

pintu at tak terbukak lagi

n aku x boley lupe si dia yang disayangi

(geli shiol ayat)

ak just harap dowg dapat ape yang terbaek tok dowg

tapi wutever pon, at least deep inside my heart

aku sayang dowg, at least sayang as kawan

p/s

to all my stalkers

(ceh ceh kunun banyak la stalker aku)

tonjolkan la diri anda

jom la kte membalas2 kutukan

bertukar2 buah pikiran

jom jom jom.

salam sayang dari aku tok sumer yang berminat menjadi stalker ak.

borang masih banyak

sile dapatkan

hatyai and songkhla, thailand

weather~~ hepi bangat, missing thailand~

sawadikkapppp~~
i just went back from thailand yesterday nite.
hahah~~
hepi gler bile dpt gak jejak negara orang.
ktowg bertolak dr uitm kol 6 pagi bley tak.
sampai sne kol 12 lbey gak la, sampai2 tros check in.
sepanjang perjalanan sgt tired dan ngantokz, n muke sangat seposen ble terpaksa tron nek bus banyak kali for imigresen pnye proses.
but im happy3x.
ktowg praktis lepas letak barang dlm bilek. (sangat menyakitkan hati ye)
then we have our lunch at the lobby.
it was awesome. the foods and the tom yam memang cantek d ctow mantap owh yeah!
seyes tak tipu.
sgt kenyang tahap gle.
then we straight away go to the convensyen centre dowg, prince university of songkhla.
bese r training sume, and make lambat sampai lagi 5 minit nk perform pon ade lg yang tak siap make up!
waduh waduh!! benci btol aku suasana time tu.
then perform jadi tak jadi jek. byk btol mistakes ak. yela, training 2 ari jek, amek la muke ako.
bla bla..(byk sgt pengalaman, x larat nk cter sume)

the best experience is....shopping!!!
gle murah barang die.
night market dy mmg heaven la wa cakap sama lu. brg tak banyak gler plak.
( perempuan yg x suke shopping disarankan supaya jgn pegi so kaki anda tidak akan muntah2 kekenyangan)
market dye sangat besar ye.. tak tergambar kate2.
murah+cantek+puas hati.

but the problem kat sane is language. so ktowg pon xphm ape dowg ckp, dowg pon xphm ape aku cakap. tho ckp english pon ssh nk survive. (ceh ceh)
lucky we have kak fiza yg fluent gler ckp thailand. (sangat kagum)

second nite g jln2 lgik..pg minum teh ais thailand. bley tahan sedap r..
jumpe lak segerombolan owg melayu.
ketawa besar mlm tue ble one of the malaysians tu ade gak yg melatah cm ila. haha..
connection abes. bley lak berbalas balas melatahnye.
aku sekadar senyum kerana takot, ( takot ila akan melemparkan pelempangnye dalam ketidaksedaran diri)

dlm best2 ade gak yg tak best nye.
satu, xleh blas msg owg sebab ak x beli sim card thailand.
then, ak xdapat nk belikan sourvenir tok kwn2 ak, huhu ( im toast)
n ak kene berjimat pd bulan ini memandangkan duit suda banyak dihabiskan d thailand. (im a dead meat)
whatever pon, idup hanye skali.
ntah ble lg ak dpt pegi sana kan.
haha~sedapkan at sendiri.
n im gonna miss thailand...

kap kun kap thailand.
chandra te ma..

xoxo